Things just happen

Have you ever wondered why you always feel like things just couldn't get worse. Well that is how I have been feeling for a few weeks now.

The guy that I told you that I am in love with and we kind of have this love hate relationship well he moved so I no longer see him and we got into a HUGE fight so I no longer talk to him so my life is pretty much blowing right now. I really didn't think that all of this would happen so fast but when I thought that he really loved me and things were going to go awesome then everything turned on me and left. Things have gotten so messy and I haven't really talked about it seeing that I kinda forgot that I had my blog to tell everyone how I am feeling. I really think that things will get better, well I hope, but then again I really think that I lost him this time and I have no idea how to get him back.

Every time that we got into a fight I would always apologize and I shouldn't have cause I didn't have a reason to but I felt like it was the right thing to do. But as time went on I got really sick of all the apologizing and stopped. He wasn't to happy because he is a guy and they don't like to admit that they are wrong, but he started saying all these really sweet things and then when I would ask him if he loved me he would say in a way yes but I don't quit know if I am in love with you. So the most resent fight that we had he started sweet talking again and I told him to stop saying all this stuff if he really didn't mean it. He got extremely angry and I didn't apologize cause I didn't need to it wasn't something that I needed to apologize for and of course he blamed it all on me. So when I pointed out all the things that he has done to me he didn't reply. (btw this is all on Im and Mail) so now we are back to us not talking even though this is a time where we need each other the most.

I just want to ask for advise.

Thanks,
B